Smashed. :(

* i'm goin kedah.

After all the farewell parties...
Tears..
presents received...
Mentally preparation...
With the bank account opened n so on...



How if I tell u that im not going Kedah d?
:)

Answers I got from them...

mom: dun be so sampat la... government give u an offer but u dowan.... bla bla bla...
sis : I'm gonna kick u to kedah ah!!
dad : duno u lah... keep on changing ur mind...



I’ve checked the prerequisites of universities for matriculation students...
Basically matriculation students for aliran sastera do not have many choices when come to choosing a course to study in uni...
Ignore the linguistics...
The courses left are undang2 which I will not take into my consideration...
Business admin n accounting are rated so-so to me...
Oh... what im gonna do now?!!

Registration for matriculation is on next week!!


STPM?
Mom is gonna kill me for that...
And dad is starting to be impatient because of my indecisive...


I'm just feeling insecure about my future....
can someone please understand me instead of saying " I thought u are decided to go kedah d?" or " why are u keep changing ur mind?"


I don't even know which to choose between science stream or art stream?
Preferably science stream... but matriculation?
Owhh... it's gonna be a waste...

Hmm... If it's bout interest or financial den no comment la... If go because that's an offer then u have to really think about it...

Seriously need to think about it now...

Halo - beyonce knowles

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

One of the babies from the hatchery...

Teddyyumyum..

it's so cute...

love it!!

Spent 800 hatchy points to buy it...

mana tau another one turned out from a regular egg pulak...

aiks...

Hot cross bunny...

Heart dis too!!

:)

Oh! Jane Tan!

What a friend is this....


Now u know...






 

Great photographer...
Haha...





* * *



Sarah, the birthday gal...:)

I wasn't looking at the camera?

owhh..

* * *

They are so LOVELY...

* pinch pinch

:D

"event" looks so cute!

u know how pretty u are when u are smiling rite? 

So, stay happy gal...

Muacks!

"irene", im gonna miss u so much...

u look cute when ur crying.. 

 heh heh...

Jojo was too excited as she saw me..

Haha...

nice one...

* * *

escalator...

She was so sensitive to the camera...

Haha...

A great poser anyway...

Finally they realized me..

Sobs...

* * *

Lastly...

I love dis pic of mine...

* happy

:)

Guilty doesn't help.

I'm sorry if I'm the one who screwed up the plan.

farewell?

birthday?

sincere apologize.

Happy Birthday Mom!!

* wishes from bibi n ah tom too :)

Stay healthy n be happy always.

 

 

 

Someday, I will make u be proud of me.

 

I love you.

 

Study hard n behave well rite? 

yea... I noe...

I hope I can always be there when u need me...

 

Someone fetching u for a medical check up?

Ha-ha... yea...!!

 

I told my dad that i will need a laptop over there

to do assignments n reports

oh well

i'm getting one soon XD

currently doing survey on which model to buy

hehe

shh

I need a laptop for facebook n bloggie lah

=)

my mood now is in pink colour!!

Hey…

Stay there n dun move!

 

 

 

Muacks!

Happy birthday!!

It was sister’s day!!

Muacks!

Wookay...

I’m currently doing my checklist for items to bring...

 

My little teddy bear… my pillow… my blanket… clothing… and I need to get myself a pair of high heels… which will not torture my foot! Oh yea… medicine for allergy… and any types of medicine that would be needed… what else?

 

 

I wish I can leave something here for u…

 

 U know i will miss u alot... =(

 

 I would just run away from de campus anytime…

emo time... 

I'm still de gal that always cries...

*I'm wondering whether i need a laptop over there?

I'm leaving in less than one month time...

1. I straighten my hair.

I don't see any differences, but I like it. =D

2. Matriculation.

Kedah...... Here I come...!! I will be there for a year... I'm gonna miss alot of things here... I cant come back so often... I duno how to come back also... =(  

I will be taking business admin... unless i get JPA scholarship... aiks... but de chance of getting it is super duper low... 

what to bring? what to prepare? and clothing to wear? I got alot of question marks!!  

Yee Joe.. make sure that u will be very very hardworking!!

3. Health.

My dad said that i may get leukemia based on de symptom i told him. He made me scared and i went to a doctor this morning with my mom. De doctor was laughing nonstop at me and Im gonna kill my dad!!

Common symptoms of leukemia:

Fevers or night sweats X

Frequent infections  X

Feeling weak or tired Yeap... always...

Headache  Yeap... always...

Bleeding and bruising easily (bleeding gums, purplish patches in the skin, or tiny red spots under the skin)  Yeap... I got alot of "black green spots" on my legs n hands...!!!

Pain in the bones or joints  I don't think so...

Swelling or discomfort in the abdomen (from an enlarged spleen)  Discomfort... yea!!

Swollen lymph nodes, especially in the neck or armpit X

Weight loss Owh... Weight gained!

4. Financial problem

I need some sponsorships! 

5. a date?

When u all will be free for an outing?  Miss u guys alot... =(

6. Facebook

I got no time recently for de games...!!! extra time pleasE? 

current new addiction : restaurant city!!

7. Road safety.

Oh well... this is not my problem! People shout when I drive. I didn't ask them to do so. Hehe. Driving is fun thou...!! Yeah... at last my mom allowed me to paste de P stickers on her car... which means... I can drive her car!! but not without her guidance.... 

8. Weather

It's hot, hot and HOT!! 

9. Mystery

Shh... Project is constructed without his knowledge... Hehe...

10.  Recent Cravings.

. more time?

. i need money

. laptop 

. formal clothings

. formal shoes

. Car? Hehe...

I am going Kedah!

I can feel the excitement!

Will u miss me?

Tell me that u do...

Should

I...

or not?

Kedah is really far...

I will miss here alot...

was crying nonstop when i called my parents to tell dem de news...

never thought of staying outside alone so fast...

Kedah...!!!

11st of may...

which is one month later...

:"(

心跳-王力宏

想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的塬点
　　　　
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
　　　　
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
　　　　
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
　　　　
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
　　　　
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好

heart dis song badly...

Love him as I always do...

Lee Hom oh Lee Hom~~

:)

I hope I can do something...
At least I should tell her what I know...




Stupid me started de conversation with her by asking her "Do you know XXX?" and followed by "you're his gf right? We met once but I don't think you can remember me..."

I wasn't sure she is the one I met before...
I was looking at her for de whole nite there...


And at last...
I wasn't doing anything...

Maybe she enjoys being like this...
Maybe she knows more than what I know...
Maybe there are some misunderstandings...
Maybe it wasn't true....

Oh yea... one more thing...
I scared I will get slapped or she will commit suicide after telling her all that...

Struggles.

eGin in da house! 

sleeping 

*swinging with bunny*

Oops!

can i have some privacy please?

she looks so cute with that thing on her face...!! XD

signed_out

*pic taken at genting, went there last week with mom n sisters 

Muahhhh~~

my mood is super duper good 2day...

because i bought de thing which I wanted for so long...

and I got free gifts for that!

Yay!!

I am freaking bored now!

I need something to keep me occupied....

are u there?

当一段感情发生外遇，或是出现第三者时，

这并不完全是坏事，

也不是你的世界末日。

这世上没有人会因为没有了谁而活不下去……

女性大多是这类事情的受害者，那是因为心软所造，

或是一时伤心气坏了，急着撇清关系，

把自己应得的都放弃了。

法律上其实偏向于保护女性，

只是它没有好好被利用……

分手时，最笨的就是把他之前送的东西（尤其是钻戒，戏都是这样做的嘛！）丢进大海……

理智点……东西可以拿去卖！

弥补下自己也好对不对？

再不然换个角度想……

把东西丢进大海，造成污染，也是资源的浪费……

婚姻，需要双方面维持，

也需要负责任。

离婚，不是签字分居罢了，

赡养费，请给我……

Im officially 18 finally...

cake dat my dad bought and eGin was so excited to decorate it...



棉胖胖 18生日快乐
she likes to call me with that name...



Ha-ha... since when u become so artistic?
He bought de raw materials n did it himself for de whole nite...
*touched*




well well...
Had a great day ytd...
Breakfast with him and after he went working...
I spent my time with pet society... for de whole day..!!

Bought a lot of things for eGin, n took a lot of time to earn de paw points... 
hehe.. *enjoyed*

In case u duno...
I named my pet in that application as eGin... Hohoz..



flooded by gifts... 
Haha...
thats really cute n awesome...!!

then... 
sleep lor... eat lor... online lor...
my daily routines since January...

celebrated with family at nite
and he came over my hse after working...
oh yea... de cake is digested...

A great day with a simple way...

lastly... everyone who wishes me...
thanks alot!
muacks!!





...
desperately need to take a deep breathe...
de time is getting lesser and my future is still undecided...
that really makes me feel insecure...

waiting for scholarships?thats just an excuse maybe...i m trying to escape from making a decision...

Jior...tell me what to do leh...

漫无目的地等、等、等！
应该要找点事情来做了，只是……我又能做些什么？唉~~

Yeah...

PASS!!

this would be a great present for me as well...

can't wait for my P license~~

Hohoz...

It's de day!

.

.

.

7th of April

Happy Birthday to SY..!!

She is one day older than me and I will always remember that! 

I'm feeling so bad right now.

I'm a faker.

I'm insecure.

Hate myself for being so indecisive.

Romance needs money?

Haha...!!!

Told u i will put dis in my blog...

:)

哦，宝贝，明天我们吃糯米鸡ok吗？

哈哈~明天可以见你~好兴奋~

信息是今早起床才看到的，

今早我赖床是你叫醒我的，

感觉很温馨……

明天的面试要加油！

还有，一定要穿我买的衣服……

Wow...!!

went there 3 times n waited for so long...

at last...

I got it...

It's really hard to get ur RM 100...

此时的感觉

.

.

.

.

很糟

喜不喜欢？可不可以？

我不喜欢回答这类问题。