1. 

it has been quite a while that I didn't update my blog and maybe myself too.

 I'm so outdated already, obviously.

I'm not even working for 10 days but can I fast forward the time and anyone can tell me that it's July already?

Time is definitely better to go but my workload is somehow exhausting.

Those works that people never wanted to do are basically what I am doing right now.

filing all the documents... a work which will never be done, unless the company is shut down.

checking the inventories in the store like a big huge hot oven.

with all the sweats and sticky sticky skin... Ah! I don't want to be seen in that way. : c 

2.

Through things that happen around us...

we know how much people weigh us in their heart.

wasn't got enough attention i guess..

I was so into the sea of blue since after I came back from the island.

you should know how frustrating to be with people you don't like *this much* for *that long*.

not trying to be emo or what la..

i'm just telling my recent thoughts.

if not i'm going to burst soon...

I mean...real soon.

when the conversations or the place is obviously not for me..

I choose to be quiet or leave.

It turns out to be a better way i think because I used to be the one talking and people never listen to me

when it comes to me..

everyone thinks that I will surely tell if I have something worth to tell..

yes.. it's absolutely true that I always need an ear to listen to me and I will get the "ear" myself. 

Big problems or small matters...

perhaps I should just filter them first because not everyone interested with my stories.

thats why people never thought of taking the initiative to call me and ask me "How's life?".

it must be heart-warming i guess.

I wonder why. 

I just need some time to transform myself and moving on with the journey

because time doesn't stop for anyone. 

thinking of going for a vacation alone right now. ummm...

having time with yourself alone makes you think more about you yourself and the others.

i don't know why I'm so struggling in my heart (for reasons that I also don't know?) and I think I will be mentally ill soon if this continues...